WordPress stated this to be my very first post. But it’s not actually, I’m just gonna use this post to inarticulate myself properly to WordPress users, friends and new to meet me. I’ll be sharing some personal infos about me but i hope you won’t be judgemental towards me. I’m an open person, you can tell me things and I’ll be happy to address you.
My name is Aliyu Abbas Aboubakar, but most people knew me by Abbas as I’m officially known by that name. Aliyu appeared to be my first name which only a few people knew me with the name. Aboubakar is my surname.
When i was a kid i wonder if i had only one name as then I wasn’t well equipped enough to know if i had another and i whenever i hear other people’s names, i wonder why mine had to be rare and sounds funny. Yeah it does to me #haha. Until I grew older to figured my parents are only used to calling me with Abbas but i had a first name actually which is Aliyu, a name which according to my paternal side granny’s sister was suggested by my sister shafa’atu. I’ve always wanted to join both the names together because i wanted to be addressed with both names. Which also could be cherished in memories of my two sisters.
Shafa’atu is my elder sister who died many years ago when i was just a boy. Nabeela who happens to be my younger sister passed away too when i left 5th grade. I was about 12 years then I guess, and she was 10. I was left alone with my parents as the last surviving child. You could think i now have all the love in the world right? but that’s not it.
This is how my story happened
Not everyone is fortunate to have parents who actually pays all the attention to their child. Pitiful and sad i know. I grew up to have less attention from my both parents which kinda affects me in a way I couldn’t understand. My dad and mum are divorced for years before my younger sister even passed away. Mum got busy with school and him…wants me to be able to make it in life without him. I developed interest in movies and almost turn into a freak when it comes to the movies.
Ahh i wish i can interpret the Qur’an the way I can to the movies.
I learn almost everything through movies. Life was hurting but no one could notice. A day has never gone by without my sisters in my heart and crossing my mind. I miss them (Shafa’atu & Nabeela). I wanted my name to be unique and different so i joined both names and make it sound English (Alieyabbas) still sounds funny…right #lol.
But it’s both in honour of my beloved sisters. The elder one love the name Aliyu and the younger one was use to calling me Abbas. So Alieyabbas was born.
Why i love to write
I developed the idea of writing well…umm i just found peace in writing. I can’t express my feelings in a way people would understand so I write. It all started from my handwriting, i loved it, i always wanted to see me write. So if i had nothing to write or copy i’d get a mini book full of sweet and love messages and i will turn them all into my own feelings and pour them into different blank pages. Quotes, cutes post and text in movies, whatever appeals to my taste and knowledge, I write down.
I recently finished a book about parental issues with the kids, anger management, love and connecting to our inner selfs. This i hope will contribute hugely to the society and make better changes to our lives.
A symbol of love
Whenever I can’t seem to think of anything or write, i draw a symbol of love. This happens to be a part of me that no matter where i am, if i can carve or think of carving/drawing, i draw that symbol of love.
I love being around people and laughing all the time…I simply love happy moments #chuckles who doesn’t. Me laughing all the time was what affects me, because somewhere it became a part of me after surviving and learning to always manage to smile in difficult situations. It got me to the point that i smile even at serious situations. I might smile when you tell me things but trust me I’m feeling exactly the way you’re feeling. I just can’t express my feelings in any other way. If you happen to run into me, do pay a good attention to my smile. You’d be shocked to realise it’s just a worn mask on my face.
My entire life is quite a huge one. But almost all people around me took me for granted because i made myself available all the time. Don’t blame me, i just wanted to feel loved. For years most people had seen me as a fool but i turn a blind eye and pretended I don’t notice. And in the real picture I notice every inch of movement, countenance, murmurs, whispers, lies, mocking, mimicking, towards me, either negative or positive…everything.
I thought everyone would understand with time. But with time even my closeness with the people I thought i had a chance with, fades away too. What then I realised, what if they do? Doesn’t mean they will change towards me and give me the attention i so crave for. It might even get worse. So i left.
“Once you start giving too much importance to people, you tend to lose your value in their lives.”
I spend my entire life learning people and understanding them. I gathered the little experiences i had while surviving and the movies I’ve watched. It’s quite something. The way i could even predict people in reality and in movies was surprising to even me. I find solace in watching movies.
My Book about parental issues and how to stay connected to the Kid.
Years passed, I wasn’t able to express my feelings so I start on a diary…but to publish a diary, i knew some people will mistook me for a narcissist or selfish person. I wanted to make it something everyone could learn from around the globe. I wonder what… then it struck me. Write a book. That’s it. A book. I turn everything into a live changing experience. I thought this isn’t happening to just me, it circlet around the world too. I could see the bullies around me in reality and in movies. Many are victims of the same issues but doesn’t have a voice for we all don’t wanna hurt our parents or kill their spirits. But how do we solve problems with them without having to compromise the relationship we share. That’s why i wrote my book which is coming very soon.
This book is sure to help in many ways. I’m sure it could even change things for me too for the better. But it also has secrets about the current generation which i had to elaborate in order to make the reader understand the message. I apologise.
That’s quite enough about me. How about i hear from you too. Let’s get to know each please.
I’m here to be a sweet friend.
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